i haven't been this fucking broke in forever... me buying the mic and shit killed my economy totally.. i know i keep going on and on about this shit.. but i'm actually concerned for realz... there's NO WAY i will survive this year without getting money from somewhere ... fast?! ... fuck .. i'm open for suggestions... porn? fetish? haha... fuck!!!!!!! i'm desperate... .

the dollar went up a whole swedish crown since i got the money "approved" from my swedish government...(so i actually got less money than what i needed in order to be able to survive this semester.....) that fucked me over sooooooooooooo bad... SO BAD ... . i dunno what to do at this point! ..

i have $400 left to live on this year.. it's a fucking joke...  and i don't have an excessive lifestyle.. ..i try to spend my money wisely... but it really doesn't help... it's stressing me out to the point where i get zits... so fuck .. gimme a break already....  money is something that tears you apart... that eats you up from the inside.... i can't even afford to buy stuff for the person that i love... ..

but school's fun so far... i haven't been on stage singing yet .. but i have been on stage in class in a very strange "situation" ...  ... i'll be more detailed later... . but some in my class started crying in front of the class cause of this exercise... it was intense... in a very strange way... but i also think very helpful ... ...not everything is about singing to become a good singer.. tell you that much!

next week i have 1 paper due and i have to perform at least 2 songs live ... so .. geesh .. ... better learn teh lyrics this weekend yo!