So, London Ambulance... I didn't get shortlisted this time around but they told me to apply again in 6 months. My Pa says he will support me if I go to uni to study paramedic skills. I'm not so sure, it'll take three years and I have a mortgage to pay, I can't expect that of anyone. This year has been odd, two free tattoos and two free holidays. I'll explain. The first free tattoo was on London Ink, I posted the clip about two blogs back now I think. The second free tattoo was because I helped out the guy that does all my tattoos (well most of them) I now have a zombie buddha hand on my left upper/inner arm. The two free holidays; every year I go to Turkey to do stuff and help people out that we know with all manner of things. This July I also got to go to Argentina for the hardest 'holiday' I have ever taken. I'm glad to say that Gaby and Carlos are now home. Taking of which, Gaby marries my brother on tuesday. I'm just excited that I get to play with Carlos and sing 'Jammin' to him and watch him go mental love I never thought I'd love the little guy quite like I do. I helped a kid out and ended up losing my job. Back in the day being a youth worker was all about the young people. It got to the point where my boss was on at me all the time to sell this or sell that to the young people. I am not a sales person. I am too soft and compassionate to take money off of kids so they can attend an extended school. The boss also asked me to go through the medical files of the health clinic I was running with qualified nurses. I have since found out I was breaking the law with the data protection act. In all I am SO glad I am out of there but I haven't got a new job yet and feel a bit shit about the LAS! I have until the 23rd to decide whether to appeal the desicion from my old bosses about being dismissed. At the moment I feel it is better to walk away but is it? Should I fight it? I have cyclothymia, which is rapid cycling bipolar and part of that makes me want to give up on important things and walk away, so who knows if I am doing the right thing cause I sure as hell don't know. I'm even getting annoyed by people online telling me what to do in online rpg Dead Awaken as one of the leaders is getting on my tits about what I have been doing and the fact I chose not to get involved in the shitty politics there. This ended up in an arguement on the forums. My arguement was that I pay like £2 a month to play the game, who the fuck is she to tell me what to do. I nearly got arrested the other day as well, driving my car minding my own business when I got pulled by the feds. 'This car has been marked for an ABH incident' they tell me (actual bodily harm) I had my driving licence and asked for more details and they tell me a guy has put in a complaint against me for attacking him. I get out the car and tell them there was indeed an attack but he attacked me. Weeks ago. I didn't report it as I was badly beaten up years ago by some bloke and the police got back to me saying he denied it and there was nothing they could do. What is the point of reporting this attack then? Turns out after getting home, the guy I live with attacked someone while driving my car, uninsured!!!!! I may have thrown them off what they initially stopped me for, who knows? Merry Christmas all you mad, mad people. Much love for 2009