It's my day off. I can't find any words to describe how I am feeling... trust me, I've tried. So instead I decided to sleep in until 11am, eat 3 bowls of cereal, and now I am transfering photos from my parents' computer to discs. I am so happy I got that laptop. Relationship troubles are the worst. I feel like I am smothering him. I work a lot, so when I am not, I am either shooting or looking to spend time with the boy. Lately I feel like I am annoying him. Our tempers are short these days and sometimes I want to escape to a place where I don't have to think about anything. I find myself smashing televisions and computer screens on the side of the road instead. My drunken stagger, my infinite swagger, makes me chuckle. I have blisters on my hands from the golf clubs and the baseball bats. I don't dare to use my hands because i love my bones and I don't have money for doctor bills. I wish time could stop long enough for me to catch my breath and figure out why I feel like I have nothing when in reality, I have everything I have dreamed of for so long... I am having a set for DN shot tonight at 7:30! I am really looking forward to it.
