i should be going to bed since i will be waking up early tomorrow to head to new york city.

woot woot.

but i should take something to help me fall asleep. im glad i cant take pills cuz i can take half a benadryl and fall right asleep.

so today i rented a dvd from the library, i got bored today and it's a documentary called "american meth" and it was pretty interesting.

im really glad i never wanted to ever ever try it and as i was watching it, i was going over my head the conversation im going to have to deal with my daughter when she grows up and realizes drugs are out there.

fortunately, i have a long way to go from that conversation ever happening.

but i will have to deal with that "drug talk".

and i dont know why, but im getting obsessed over watching Bravo shows, like Rachel Zoe Project. And of course Project Runway and all that.

i think new york and fashion is getting into my mind.

and now that i mentioned drugs, i did a shoot last sunday that involved me doing lines of "coke" (a mix of baby powder and flour) and trying to make it look artsy and awesome and neat. i mean, i dont condone it, i dont use it so i hope the images will only affect the consequences of the actions not implementing that that's what i do and enjoy doing. and i hope soon that i can show it to you guys. plus side to it too, it'll be in an art show at the beach so hopefully i get to see up. And the photos turned out great so im not that worried that it'll send a different image.

okay im done.

see you guys thursday!

xo.msjesshawk

and see you guys in san fran!! woot woot!!