I need to vetn or am not going to be able to sleep till i can get somethings of my chest.
so sorry anyone who reads this it could be a long one. some advice would be handy if anyone has got any.........


All day ive been feel anxious, two things where on my mind first one was if my new rat cage has turned up the other if my throught to be good friend has replied to my messaged that i spent most of last night writing.
ones i got home after midnight cage had turned up int the day  (horay ) but my friend had read my message but hadnt bovered to reply.


It all started over two months ago .... well more a year ago when i sent her some stuff to borrow for a shoot as time went by i wasnt bovered by the fact she still had my stuff as i didnt need it at that time so i didnt ask for it back. till about the begning on june when I messaged her asking if she could post it back as i was planning a shoot and wanted it back to use it. I got a reply that she was in the middle of moving and finishing up her exhibition and she would send it when shes settled and she got some money to post it back . Which is fair enough i didnt want her to put her self out unpacking everything to find my stuff asnot to long ago ive moved and finding stuff when its been packed is a nightmare.

2 months past and i hadnt heard from her so i started leaving messages for her to see if she was ok , i noticed she wasnt  online alot  but she had been on after the date i sent her the messages but she never read them. In the end she did message me back but her message was very vague and short.
I had asked if she was on and all i got as a reply was "Alive..." I was very confused by this and didnt answer as i didnt know how too.
But she txt me a couple of days later asking for a favor of takening her ex of my friends list on myspace
confused by the request i asked her why and she told me that hes been bugging her friends. Till confused by how this would be a problem to me as if he started anything on me i would have just told him to get fusked and deleted him myself. I agreed to the request and asked her in the same message how she was . The reply I got some only to me agreeing to take him of which was a reply of "thanks"
once again her behavor over none vocal communication was very strange so i txt her the same question of if she ok which i got the reply of "Alive...... how are you " I decided to txzt her saying that her answer was very vague...which she never replied too .So i decided to answer her question of how i was , I also added to this txt about her returning my stuff. The reply shocked me alittle as she txt back saying she would when the tog she was meant to use the stuff for almost a year a go would get of his ass and shoot her with the stuff. I really was surprised as she knew i wanted it back and from that reply i got the sence she didnt want to give it back till shes finsihed with it

I replyed saying that she needed to return it as i needed it and i told her that i needed it 2 months ago I also brought up that shes had long enought to use the stuff for what ever she wanted it for. i got a sorry of her for having it to long but she also added that she couldnt promise she would be able to get it to me in time as its in the attic and the land lord has the labber........
to me this reply seemed to be a cop out . why is it in the attic anyway when she knew when she was moving that i wanted it and also that shes been waiting to use uit in a shoot???????
the the thing about the land lord seem abit of BS aswell.
i told her i would see if i could get the date of my shoot put back so that she would have enough time to sort things out and get it on its way ok. I txted her with the date of the shoot which fromt hat positn was 2 weeks ago, which i think is plenty of time to get the stuff back to me..

This saturday coming up is my shoot and its still not turned up she i messaged her the night before asking if she would let me know when its posted.... I also decided to add this



hi hun can you let me know when you post my stuff please
also I couldnt not notice that you seem to be giving me abit of a cold shoulder lately. each time ive asked you how you are your answers have been very vague. also when you txt me about taken lee of my friends list i said no problem and asked how you are and you just said "thanks" and thats it, i had to ask you again to get anything out of you and all i got was "alive...." I also on the same day of letting you know what date i need the stuff back by asked you if you could let me know when a good time was to call so I could have a chat with you but you never replied to that message at all.
I want to know whats up why are you treating me like this and giving me the run about with sending my stuff back.??????
I am very confused with your behavior towards me and would like to talk to you about it.

I have noticed you havent been online alot so ive sent this meassage to your other profiles aswell. sorry if this annoys you but i wanted to make sure you see it as soon as possible

Michelle




I sent this message to alot of her profiles modeling , photogrpahy and her personal ones aswell to make she it was read. And ive come home to see that it is read but no reply ........

I love this girl to bits and it has really upset me that ive been treated this way and used, I have gone out of my way so many time to give her lifts , take time of work to drive her across the country to shoots , Everytime she needed a favor i would go out of my way to help her. And this is how i am treated when asking for something to be returned. I dont know what ive done to be treated this way as the last time she contact me before me asking for the stuff back was when she was coming to bristol and wanted me to drive her around bristol to a shoot she had planned to take photographs of a model. I couldnt do this as i was in teh final couple of months of uni and the work load was to big to just run of and do a favor for a friend. I throught she would understand this as she was at college but she kept on asking me till the last mintue and each time i said i couldnt. Since then shes been actting like this and thats the only thing i can think to why shes treated me this way.

I dont knwo what the really reason or problem is as she doesnt seem to want to talk about things and am left in the dark about our friendship and if shes ever going to return my things.........